Mommy? No!

BABIES ARE JUST THE CUTEST THING IN THE WORLD!

(Well not those days old ones, they kinda creep me out.)

Ever since I was a little girl, I am already fond of babies, toddlers and kids. Since then, one of my dreams in life is to become a Mom to cute little babies someday.  Believe it or not, when I was seventeen, I wanted to have my own baby already (not that I was trying to get preggy, hell no!). I am just so in love with the thought of a little wonderful angel that constantly wants my love, affection and attention.  I am in love with a baby's smile, laughter and screams.  I wanted to have my own baby not until a few weeks ago when I had the chance to babysit my 2 year old nephew. ALONE. Not technically alone, since my Mom and Lola were there with me, but they left me to handle Elijah (my nephew) by myself. I guess Momma was trying to teach me a lesson. 

It was a Sunday and what was supposedly a date with my Mom and Lola turned out to be a baby sitting gig for me.  When I fetched my Lola at her house, my cousin asked me if I wanted to take Elijah with us and since I love the little boy so much, (Who wouldn't? He's an adorable sweet little angel who smiles at every person he sees!) I immediately said yes.  

Elijah was so charming and obedient at first.  He followed everything I said.  He folded his arms when I told him to behave, danced with me whenever the mall plays a song with a good beat and kisses and hugs me every now and then.  Then I took him to the toy store.  I thought, it would delight him more and we can have fun looking and playing at those toys.  I thought wrong.  Once we got inside the toy store, that charming, little dancing buddy of mine turned into a MONSTER!! He ran around and took every toy he could grab.  Elijah has a thing for cars so held one tightly and did not let it go.  I tried to take it away from him because  I want to buy him another toy but he just started crying and rolling on the floor.  People were looking at me and their faces spelled "What a horrible Mom!!", I wanted to shout "This one's not mine!" to defend myself but  I decided not to care.  I asked Elijah "Okay, ano gusto mo?" and he answered "LAHAT!!".  I laughed with his answer and decided to pay for the car toy he first took instead of buying the whole store. Hell, I couldn't afford it! Hahaha. 

After handing him the toy, I let out a big exhale thinking that the monster will be back into being an angel again but again, I thought wrong.  It was just the beginning of the excruciating baby sitting gig of my life.  His tantrums continued and started crying, rolling, crawling on the floor! Apparently, he doesn't want to walk and wants me to carry him.  It would have not been a problem if he is not the 2 year old that looks like a 4 year old in size and even in weight.  I tried carrying him but my body would just surrender.  (Have you seen my body? I even have difficulty carrying a grocery bag!)

So Baby Monster kept on running around. And what do you expect from a toddler who runs around much? They fall -which freaks me out.  Not only does he run around the mall like a college student who had just weed but he threw this toy at this poor little boy who wanted nothing else but to befriend him.  I took him away from the kid because  he really wouldn't listen to me when I tell him to stop.  We then happen to pass by this group of sales lady and guess what Baby Monster did? He went to these ladies and took their hands to do the mano gesture.  CUTE HUH? He also kissed them and danced for them.  He did it all by himself.  I guess that kid will be an entertainer in the future because he just loves attention and performing in front of other people. Kinda like me when I was in his age.  Hahaha!

After minutes of his little show before a crowd of amused people, I told him that we have to leave for dinner.  He again cried, crawled and rolled so I have to carry him.  But he did not do that until he was able to kiss all of them goodbye. STILL CUTE.  

We went to Jollibee because it's his favorite thing in the world (Every kid loves Jollibee!) and I was wondering why he was quiet all of a sudden.  When I asked him, he told me that his hand was "yayay".  I immediately concluded that he hurt his hand from falling. I kissed his hand and told him to behave whenever Momma or Tita Shee tells him to do so that he wouldn't have any yayays next time.  He just said OPO and indulged to his food after.

Don't get me wrong, I had fun that day ... even if it was exhausting! I love Elijah and i love hanging out with him.  Despite that traumatic experience, I still love kids. :) I guess, I just have to know how to handle them when Mr. Tantrums come.  

After sending Elijah back to his Mom, I told my own Mom this :"I will never have kids!". Hahaha. Ofcourse I did not really mean that. I still want to be a Mommy, someday but not today! I realized that I am so not ready yet to become one. I always thought that having a kid is an easy job but it isn't.  I know now how difficult it is after that experience. Although it was just short compared to a lifetime gig of real life mothers, I was able to internalize the difficulties of rearing up a child.  

My Baby Monster Love :)) I LOVE U!! <3